JELES!

I keep hearing that word.... and it keeps conjuring up that Green Monster! Not my favourite colour at all! When friends and acquaintances get judgmental and stab you from the back, your better friends tell you that they are just jealous! And i think ... Jealous of me? Whatever for? 

Then I wonder if Jealousy and Envy are the same thing? Is one worse than the other? Are they different degrees of bad and ugly emotions? In my religion, it is a sin to be jealous or envious. We should  be happy for the good things in the lives of others. We should not compare but I guess some people dream of having that better life.... a bigger car, a posh house, a better spouse,... and of course more and more and more material stuff. 

So I sit and ask myself .... Have I ever had that feeling? I am human... and I do get jealous. I have to admit that the only kind of jealousy that I would feel would be one of loss and betrayal in a relationship. That would be a justifiable kind of jealousy, wouldn't you say? 

Then I ask myself again.... Is there any person that I would be jealous of? ... Hmmm... I can't think of any! I may want to be prettier.... I don't mind being slightly richer.... I wish I could be holier and nicer.... Heck, I want to be perfect if I am allowed that privilege! But to think of one person that I am envious of.... Nope! No one comes to mind! 

I am happy being myself. ... though not perfect... and I can improve even though it is not easy! Old habits die hard. I am no longer that materialistic so I don't need earthly treasures to satisfy me. I have enough to make me smile. 

Finally, Green does not flatter me. It is just not my colour! 

FEMS ... 6 YEARS ON

E called attention to this blog some days ago. She suggested we revive FEMSTUFF so here I am making the first move… I urge you all to continue writing. Why? For no worthier reason than this – that we leave behind a written legacy for our friends and loved ones to remember us by.

It has been more than 6 years since the last entry. Where do I start? What should I write about? Surely in the past 6 years we have gone through different episodes and experiences, some life-changing, others, mundane. Several ideas flashed through my mind but how to put into words? I read with renewed interests several old postings-hoping to draw inspiration, perhaps? Instead, memories washed over me and several times I was taken back to way back then… 

Over dinner one evening, I shared a post written in 2008 with Abby– and wondered why I didn’t showed it to her earlier? Then it struck me, probably didn’t have a smartphone then! (To side-track, whatsapp was invented only in 2009!) She laughed when she saw the photo in the posting but after she read the article, said she was touched. This is what I mean, one of our musings could very well touch someone without us realizing it.

I would love to have written something longer but was tied up with work for days after I promised to revive this blog. Hope that this short contribution will lead to more from E, S and perhaps, even M!

I am truly glad that 6 years on, FEMS are still connected! May we stay FEMS4LIFE.   

For a friend ..

Extracted from a book on friendship ...

All the old sayings about friendship have come to mean something special to me … because of you.

They say, “Having a friend multiplies our joys and divides our sorrows."

That’s how’s it’s been for us. Remembering the good times we’ve shared makes me smile all over again. And thinking of the times I’ve needed you to lean on reminds me how lucky I am to have you for a friend.

“The language of friendship is not words, but meanings." We’ve grown so close that sometimes we can laugh before the punchline when we share a joke. We can agree on the same opinion or come to the same decision without saying a word. And even when we disagree, we can enjoy the sparks that fly. – that’s friendship.

“A friend is someone who knows your faults and likes you just the same.” I know we’re not perfect. (at least I’m not) And it means so much to be friends with someone who knows what’s important. I’m thankful that hurt feelings never last long between us.

“There’s no better mirror than a friend.” In spite of what all those self-analysis books say, sometimes believing in yourself just isn’t enough. You need a second opinion – an opinion you trust. Then it’s great knowing we can look to each other for the reflection that says, “I believe in you .. hang in there!”:

“When a friend asks … there is no tomorrow.” I hope you never hesitate to call on me. I’m here to give you a helping hand, a pat on the back, or even, a kick in the pants! Whatever you think you need, just yell. I know I can depend on you to do the same for me.

“A real friend is the person who comes in when the rest of the world has gone out.” I hope the really tough times never happen. But whatever we face, I feel that together we can be twice as strong, twice as stubborn, and twice as smart as the rest of the world. At least one of us may be able to see the humour in the situation.

“What do we live for if not to make the world less difficult for each other?” Caring helps.I care about your feelings, your future, your happiness, your health. I care about what you think and what you wish for. I care about who you are and who you’d like to be. And knowing you care back makes the world so much less difficult for me.

Everyone needs someone to laugh with, lean on, talk to, turn to. “A friend is a present you give yourself!! I give me …. You!”

 

Breathe in me ...

You breathe in me

And i'm alive

With the power of your holiness

You breathe in me

And you revive

Feelings in my soul

That i have laid to rest

So breathe in me

I need you now

I've never felt so dead within

So breathe in me

Maybe somehow

You can breathe new life

In me again

I used to be

So sensitive

To the light that leads

To where you are

Now i've acquired

These callouses

With the darkness of

A cold and jaded heart

So breathe in me

I need you now

I've never felt so dead within

So breathe in me

Maybe somehow

You can breathe new life

In me again



Revelation

Words...... once spoken, they cannot be taken back! 
Shocked...... at the realisation that the truth could be distorted!
Trust.... is no longer an easy option. 

It takes years to earn and a second to break!

Unconditional Love

I woke up this morning , like any other morning but there is a newer and brighter revelation. The sun is bright and  I have my loved ones with me, except for one who is miles away but very close in my heart. (U know I love YOU)  and very soon you will be back home too :)
My life has become so wonderful with the one little bird back at my side. Big daddy has realised too that our lives are filled with so much fun and laughter, so many activities and precious memories that will be added into our book of lives, to be treasured together with the past ones.
Our faces are lighted up with bigger smiles and our hearts are swollen with everlasting trust and unconditional love. Our lives have changed for the better and through all the stresses and tension, through all festivities and celebrations, we are held together in a circle of love. A simple sit down meal or a night out at the movies, means more than any weight in gold. A night where everyone of us jump into my big bed and cuddle under the comforter to watch a TV show , is as fulfilling as it can get. 
My life is complete and it's all because of my loved ones... u know who u are! :) XOXO

Happy New year 2012

It's New Year's Day in the year 2012!!! I had a nice and warm celebration with my loved ones. We spent all day together on New Year's eve , starting with a scrumptious breakfast , followed by a movie at home. Dinner was a cosy one at a Japanese restaurant and then we spent the last 2 hours of the previous year with a most precious loved one in church. 
Ending the year with Our Lord and starting the new one with HIM as well , brought us all peace and joy. Happy are the times when we can worship Him in glory and live our lives, walking close to God. We shall not allow darkness to ruin our faith. 
Here's wishing everyone an abundance of peace and hope, love and happiness and everlasting joy to all who seek Him. May good health and warm blessings fill your life through out the year!!!