Am i the same?

Its been sooo long since i blogged! And it wasn't by choice , nor was it due to my usual laziness! I have had so many mishaps in my life..... u can call them crises( that's the plural of crisis ~ in case u don't know! ) or misfortunes. But call it what u like, they made me see everything very differently and i am wondering now if all these have changed me and made me a different person altogether.

2008 hasn't been a good year for me at all , my mum passed away in October and then in November my house got damaged by the fire that started at my neighbour's house and spread on to mine!! I was homeless for 6 weeks. Stress was at an all time high for me then , and even tho a lof of people told me stuff like "everything happens for a reason" or " this could be a blessing in disguise" , to me they were all disasters in my so-far-happy and peaceful life. So please u cant blame me for screaming in anguish ~ "WHY ME?" or " WHAT NEXT?" as i wave my arms heaven bound and ask " What did i do to deserve all this?" I must have been bad!

But that's all in the past now as i move back into my house , hoping to live a more quiet , happy and peaceful life with no more roller coaster rides . I don't think i can deal with any more bad news. But then again , maybe having survived such ordeals , i may be stronger and more capable of handling future troubles. I am keeping my fingers and toes crossed though. So please don't put me to the test again . Please don't break me down again!

So did i learn anything from all these? Am i the same person i was b4 all these happened? Sometimes i think i have learnt lessons that only life can teach us. Sometimes i think these lessons aren't really lessons , esp if they change u the wrong way. They don't really make u better people, they may make u stronger but in the process they make u cold and unfeeling. They make u impatient , and selfish. Me? i have learnt too many different lessons , some good , some bad so i may have changed both ways.

This is the new ME! I go where my moods take me , heck i am entitled to them after what i had been thru!

E-nuf is enough!