Meaning of Christmas

 

The Meaning of Christmas - By Sonal Lobo


The word Christmas itself carries so much meaning in it. Each letter carries with itself a lesson to the mankind along with the birth of Jesus.

Here is a slightly different meaning of the word Christmas which surely suits us a lot in this present scenario…

C - Carry a smile everywhere you go. In today’s world each one of us is so busy in our own affairs that we are not only hesitant to smile at others but we ourselves have forgotten to smile. This Christmas let us make a sincere attempt to smile more and be cheerful.

H - Hold on to our morals. Today all of us are so busy chasing the ladder of glory and fame, that we are ready to compromise on our ethics. This Christmas let us make an attempt to stick on to our morals and values, whatsoever the situation may arise.

R - Receive others the way they are. Most of the times we fail to realize that all are not alike and perfect and tend to blame and condemn people who do not fit into our framework. This Christmas let us learn to accept others and acknowledge our differences.

I - Inspect one self. We fail to retrospect ourselves and our drawbacks and thereby cause trouble to others. This Christmas let us make an attempt to peep into ourselves and make good those little negativities we carry.

S - Share with those in need. Let us make an effort to share with not only people who have lots and can repay us, but with those who cannot repay us.

T - Trust in the Almighty. All of us have become so self sufficient that we fail to seek the assistance of God. And when things crumble in life we lose hope. In this Christmas let us learn to trust in God at all times, good or bad.

M - Make genuine relationships. Today all our relationships have become a means to achieve something, the purity and innocence is lost. This Christmas let us learn to value and build true and lasting relationships.

A - Add a dash of love in everything you do. This Christmas let us make a strong resolution to carry the essence of love wherever we go and in whatever we do.

S - Shine as people of God. In this Christmas let us learn to follow Christ not only in words but also through our deeds and uphold the values of Christ through our life.

Have a Meaningful Merry Christmas and Happy New Year...

God Bless.....
S

7 secret of success

 

Beautiful Sacrament......

The first time for anything always brings on the nervousness and jitters. So it was no exception when it came time for my first confession, the Catholic way! The Sacrament of Penance, as it is also called , can be done as often as you like but most importantly, it has to be done at least twice a year ( during Lent and Advent). Having been baptised in Easter I was washed clean of all sins but now that Advent is here, I have to face the priest and confess my sins!!!
So 2 days ago Diane and I went for the Penitential Service. I started out pretty confident but i had my little worries and doubts so i called my dad as well as my god mum. They reassured me that its not as terrifying as i think! So we set out and arrived there. As people started to fill the church and everyone took their selected spots, we decided to go to our parish priest for confession. There were 20 priests scheduled to arrive that night and they slowly filled different parts of the church.
When it looked like the priest we had chosen was the favourite of everyone as well , we decided to change spots and go for a shorter line. Making our way upstairs we were told that that particular priest has to leave early rather unexpectedly. So we were ushered to another one on the right. As we waited, 3 more came in and again we were all asked if we wanted to go to anyone of them.

Diane and I picked the one who looked the kindest  (LOL) and made our way to the next pew. We were the 3rd and 4th in line. I started to dwell more seriously on what sins i had committed and how to phrase them when Diane made a startling discovery that the priest we were going to confess to is none other than the Archbishop of Malaysia!!!!! At that point she was like Oh dear, Mum, shall we shift to the next priest!??? I have to admit that for a second i too panicked! But then i pulled all my guts together (LOL) and decided that this is the 3rd time we had made a choice and 3 times is always a charm. I also thought it was definitely God's intention to put us here :) so we stayed on and hoped for the best !!
My turn came and like my god mum had taught me i went thru the steps 1,2 and 3, followed by my sins ( not that many ...phew!) and since the priest knew that it was my 1st time he led me thru the confession so beautifully. he gave me a little talk about how our Loving God is always merciful and will always pick us up and forgive us and he said it so remarkably well with so much passion that tears welled up in my eyes with emotion. After i was given my penance, the archbishop made me repeat the Act Of Contrition with him cuz i was not familiar with it yet! Like a child i repeated after him and then came the best part.... the Absolution, where Christ thru His priest, forgives you for all your sins. With a final blessing from the priest , i thanked him and went to the back of the church, knelt down and carried out my penance.
It was indeed a wonderful experience and with tears still in my eyes, my heart overcame with joy and I truly felt the love that Christ brings. It was a warm and peaceful moment I personally shared with God.
The Sacrament of penance , an outward sign on an inward grace, ..... truly beautiful!

A chance at a second childhood

Another interesting article I came across recently....




I am not one to forward junk mail. In fact, I claim to be a victime of thoughtless, forwarding of unsolicited email, a cover-up for the fact that the dear sender wants to keep in touch but has nothing meaningful to say.

Today was different. Something moved me. I posted 45 Lessons Life taught me by Regina Brett for all to read. And now, I would like to share entry No. 19 : "It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else."

As I read that for the first time, my eyes lit up. I smiled. Bewildering thoughts passed through my mind. All that my parents had denied me as a child, I can now have. Everything I'd wanted to do, I can now do.

I'm free !!! Free to have a happy childhood. Free from controlling and, at times, overbearing parents who seemed to take pleasure in denying me that favourite toy, that lovely dress or the ability to drive the family car.

Then the dust settled and reality started to set in again. The truth of the matter revealed itself. I had forgotten all the scarifices my parents made for me. The things they gave up to feed me, clothe me and give me an education.

The hurt that they felt when I deliberately disobeyed their orders and made them confront innermost fear - that of losing me before it was time. I witnessed the anger that it manifested, but completely missed the rationale behind it.

I never understood all the fears that my parents had. The endless worries and sleepless night. Or why they felt responsible when I failed. When the values they tried to instill and the lessons that they taught went unheeded.

I understand now that they do so less because our failures are a reflection of their parenting. But more because the burden of regret is so heavy that they cannot bear to let me make the same mistakes they'd made.

Thinking back and looking forward, I cannot change anything in my childhood. I've grown up.

The things that make me happy as a child no longer work in adulthood.  The freedom that I had imagined I would have will not change who I am Now.

The second childhood Brett was refering to is really to appreciate and coming in terms with the first childhood. Being happy is about appreciating what you have.  Taking the good with the bad is called living a meaningful life.

So, instead of griping about what an unhappy childhood I had, I think I'll share the stories of my childhood with the children of the next generation. To help them see the other side of the coin so that they may appreciate their childhood while growing up.


unSelfish.....

The pursuit of unhappiness

Another interesting article I read recently... and worth sharing...





Nobody in her right mind wants to be unhappy. Everyone wants to pursue happiness. It is our relentless goal to be happy at all times.

If so, why then do we do what is contradictory and make ourselves constantly unhappy ?

It is probably due to our reluctance to accept the fact that life is unfair, and having the idea that WE DESERVE certain things.

We feel unhappy because we think we deserve to be appreciated by people - our boss, colleagues, parents, children, even our staff. WE feel unhappy because we think we deserve a raise, promotion or more fame, or we want things to go the way we wish, but they dont.

We feel unhappy that some people got rich instantly through fraudulent means or by mismanaging our money, even as we labour to death. We feel unhappy that being nice did not get us anywhere, while those who were convincing and selfish got to go where they wanted to be.

We feel unhappy because we think we deserve attention, fair treatment and having people be pleasant to us. That they will thank us, applaud us, heck, even help us. When none of this happens, it makes us tremendously unhappy.

Expecting people to be good and fair is bound to make us unhappy. Because life is NOT fair. It is only when we accept the fact that we deserve NOTHING, that we will be surprised by goodness and fairness. And in doing so, find HAPPINESS.


Sharing....

Poem for all ages - so true....

So profound, and .... so sad.


This is worth a read. whatever your age.


When an old man died in the geriatric ward of a nursing home in GRASS VALLEY, CA. It was believed that he had nothing left of any value.

Later, when the nurses were going through his meager possessions, they found this poem. Its quality and content so impressed the staff that copies were made and distributed to every nurse in the hospital.
One nurse took her copy to Missouri. The old man's sole bequest to posterity has since appeared in the
Christmas edition of the News Magazine of the St. Louis Association for Mental Health. A slide presentation has also been made based on his simple, but eloquent, poem.

And this little old man, with nothing left to give to the world, is now the author of this 'anonymous' poem winging across the Internet.

Crabby Old Man...

What do you see nurses? . . ... . . What do you see?
What are you thinking . . . . . When you're looking at me?
A crabby old man . .. . . . Not very wise,
Uncertain of habit ... . . . . With faraway eyes?
Who dribbles his food . . . .. . And makes no reply.
When you say in a loud voice . . . . . 'I do wish you'd try!'
Who seems not to notice .. .. . ... . The things that you do.
And forever is losing . . . . . A sock or shoe?
Who, resisting or not . . . . . Lets you do as you will,
With bathing and feeding . .. . .. . The long day to fill?
Is that what you're thinking? . ... . . . Is that what you see?
Then open your eyes, nurse . . . . . You're not looking at me.
I'll tell you who I am. . . . ... . As I sit here so still,
As I do at your bidding, . . . . . As I eat at your will.
I'm a small child of Ten . .. . . .. With a father and mother,
Brothers and sisters . . . .. ... Who love one another.

A young boy of Sixteen . . . .. With wings on his feet.
Dreaming that soon now . . . . . A lover he'll meet.
A groom soon at Twenty . . . . .. My heart gives a leap.
Remembering, the vows . . . . . That I promised to keep.

At Twenty-Five, now . . . .. . I have young of my own.
Who need me to guide . . . . . And a secure happy home.

A man of Thirty . . . . . My young now grown fast,
Bound to each other .. . . . . With ties that should last.

At Forty, my young sons . . ... . . Have grown and are gone,
But my woman's beside me . . . . . To see I don't mourn.

At Fifty, once more, babies play 'round my knee,
Again, we know children . .. . . . My loved one and me.

Dark days are upon me . . . . . My wife is now dead.
I look at the future . . . . . Shudder with dread.
For my young are all rearing . ... . . . Young of their own.
And I think of the years .. . . .. . And the love that I've known.

I'm now an old man . . . . .... And nature is cruel.
Tis jest to make old age . . . . . Look like a fool.
The body, it crumbles . . . . . Grace and vigor, depart.
There is now a stone . . . . Where I once had a heart.
But inside this old carcass . . . . . A young guy still dwells,

And now and again . . . . . My battered heart swells.
I remember the joys . . . . . I remember the pain.
And I'm loving and living . . . ... . Life over again.
I think of the years, all too few . . . . . Gone too fast.
And accept the stark fact . . . . That nothing can last.

So open your eyes, people . . . ... . Open and see.
Not a crabby old man . ... . . Look closer . .. . See ME!!

Remember this poem when you next meet an older person who you might brush aside without looking at the young soul within.

We will all, one day, be there, too!

surely.......

I will be back!

Oh dear!!! Its been ages since I logged in here. I just assumed that no one had the time or energy to contribute in here any more. How pleasantly surprised I was! But then again , time too became a legit factor for me. Bogged down with multiple tasks, both work and home based, I did not get much time for blogging. But having just completed 7 of my writing assignments, and killing time before getting ready for All Saints' Day Mass at 1pm, i wandered in here and had a couple of nice surprises.

We no longer have to sign off with our initials for after so many long years of Femstuff friendship, we have learnt everyone's writing styles and can easily identify whose it is :) I know the last 3 posts in here are done by the same person :) who provides funny jokes and silly stories as well very heart wrenching ones that easily conjured up droplets of tears in my eyes.

i thank you for sharing so openly all your inner feelings. I thank you too for making me giggle like a kid with your Silly KIA joke !!! But most of all I thank you for reminding me that no matter where are Mums are right now, these strong women will always be a part of us as we carry on our maternal duties as well.

let's hope that this will be the start of many more new posts from all of us!

Learning HOKKIEN (one of the many chinese dialect)

hi, posting this just for laugh..... need some of these laughing therapy..

Learning Hokkien is as easy as ABC

Children - KINA KIA

Boy - DA BOH KIA

Girl - ZHA BOH KIA

Bird - CHIAO KIA

Korean Car - KIA

Give birth - SEH KIA

Furniture - IKEA

Police - MATA KIA

Small house - CHU KIA

Hand phone - NOKIA

Malay - HUAN KIA

Hindu - KEH LENG KIA

Mat Salleh - ANG MOH KIA

Chinese - DENG LANG KIA

Japanese - JIT PUN KIA

Bad guy - PAI KIA

Good guy - HO KIA

Person who read this - GONG KIA

If you laugh - SIAO KIA

S....

eulogy for mum.

Born : 1939
Called home : Sept 26, 2011

Mum is a very simple, no fuss lady but she can be very adamant with her decision. No one can over rule what she has decided, not even High court.!

During her younger days, she has to shoulder the responsibility as head of family as my grandfather passed away early, leaving 7 mouths to feed - grandmother together with 5 siblings in tow. Because of this, our family was kept small, ie Dad, Mum, my brother and myself.

Mum always reminded both of us, brother and me of her hardship and vowed never ever to let her children go through the same journey like her. We had the BEST of everything !!

Mum is always there for anyone - friends and her siblings, nieces and nephews. No double standard treatment from her ..... well maybe one or two !

Mum, you're a fighter and a great warrior. Never complained about anything even when you are sick or in pain. Never wanted to trouble anyone and always thinking about others.

The scarcifice you make taking good care of Sabrina and Wilson when they were born. 14 years on, they are now teenagers !

Thank you, Mum for all the love, care and attention showered to us, your siblings and extended family.

Mum I know you are tired, please rest your weary body. You have done well, did what you need to do, gone places and seen some of the wonders of the world.

REST well and dont worry about us, we are survivors and fighters like YOU! Rest your tired body and dwell in the house of our Lord God, Jesus.

Till we meet again, THANK YOU !! We love you and will miss you dearly.

Here's a peom for you, Mum.

There's magic in a Mother's touch,
and sunshine in her smile.
There's love in everything she does
to make our lives worthwhile.
We can find both hope and courage
Just by looking in her eyes.
Her laughter is a source of joy,
her works are warm and wise.
There is a kindness and compassion
to be found in her embrace,
and we see the light of heaven
shining from a Mother's face.

S...

Fragile.....or precious

Another interesting topic which is worth sharing..........

FRIENDS BECOME A PART OF YOU. WHEN YOU LOSE ONE, IT'S LIKE LOSING A BIT OF YOURSELF......

It's funny how we little appreciate what and who we have in our lives, until they're gone.

Granted some, you are well off but I am truly grateful for all these wonderful people and connections who have come into, remained in and returned to my life or even briefly crossed my path over the last couple of years.

Some friends I had met at seven and some at puppy age of 12, some the cocky age of 17, some during my "jaded" 20's and others, well into my "adult" years. And seeing they're still in my life. I'd say I'm pretty set up with many lifelong friends.

We actually havent been closed for a while now but there was a time, when we were having lunches, dinners together with not a care in the world. A sincere smile between strangers that cross paths in the streets, the gesture of spending time with a loved one.

Even with our strength and resilience, how fragile we humans truly are. How there's just SO much more to life than we were under the impression of. And how, as many before me have voiced, it's almost always the little things which truly makes the difference to most of us.

The gift of hope, bestowed by some very dear friends of mine. These friends become a part of you. They embrace you into their lives and become your urban family. Yes, we are very blessed and count these blessings every day.

Thank You for being my friend when I lay my weary heart and battered bones to rest at night. But I ask of YOU, please watch over my friends tonight.

Some are out with ghoulies in disguise, flying high with angelic wings. Some strumming lullably...... Some over yonder, still waiting for the night.

Watch over all of them, please for I love them very dearly.


Sharing.....

Dream of Truth

One night I went to sleep,
full of worry and concern
and as I lay sleeping a great
lesson did I learn.
In my dream I drifted
to a place far, far away...
where the savior had been taken
to spend his final day.
The crown of thorns brought anguish
as they placed it on his head...
I watched them nail him to the cross
where his precious blood was shed.
Despite his pain and sorrow-
these words he spoke to me,
"Precious one, doubt not my love
and you shall be set free.

DONT WORRY.....BE HAPPY

i came across this article which i found to be interesting and somewhat true....... what do you think ??

Happiness has to come from within us. Be happy with who you are now, with your life.  Try your best every day, give your best shot and have low expectations. So when things turn out better than expected, Rejoice !!!

Its unrealistic to have high expectations, to impose a lot of standards in your life and comparing your situation with other people. That's the biggest problem. It will always makes us unhappy because someone, somewhere will always be better off than us.

There are people who do not have anything - and they are happy. They are enjoying their life so much. They don't have high expectations, they are living for today and from moment to moment.

Besides, having a lot of things isn't guarantee to bring you contentment. Wealth, power and fame contributes only a fraction, 5% towards happiness.  Wealth doesn't bring happiness.  Happiness comes from within you.

You can find that joy inside by learning to love yourself. When you truly love yourself, you don't want to be anybody else. You stop comparing with others. You will be happy at any income level and you will have true confidence without narcissism.

When you truly love living, you're able to find beauty and happiness in even the smallest moment. You're able to enjoy life on a moment-to-moment basis.  When you truly love others, it comes through in your words, action and your smile.

People will naturally like to be around you and forming social connections is easy. This in turn will further feed your own happiness.

Simply contented

True or False ...........................????

Murphy's Laws


Whenever I find the key to success, someone changes the lock.

To Err is human, to forgive is not a COMPANY policy.

The road to success??? Is always under construction.

Alcohol doesn't solve any problems, but if you think again, neither does Milk.

In order to get a Loan, you first need to prove that you don't need it.


All the desirable things in life are either illegal, expensive or fattening or married to someone else.

Since Light travels faster than Sound, people appear brighter before you hear them speak.

If at first you don't succeed? Destroy all evidence that you ever tried.

You can never determine which side of the bread to butter. If it falls down, it will always land on the buttered side.


Anything dropped on the floor will roll over to the most inaccessible corner.

As soon as you mention something, If it is good, it is taken... If it is bad, it happens!

He who has the gold, makes the rules ---- Murphy's golden rule.

When in a queue, the other line always moves faster and the person in front of you will always have the most complex of transactions.


irrespective of the direction of the wind, the smoke from the cigarette will always tend to go to the non-smoker!

smart alec ???

Whatever will be...........

i read an article recently which i find it quite interesting and have put into point form. 

1. Be moderate in our ways
2. Speak and act in a peaceful way.
3. Hurt no one by your words or acts.
4. Love yourself so you can love others.
5. To effectively communicate to understand each other better.
6. Do not always look at your side of the story.
7. Try to see how and what the other groups are feeling or what is troubling them and to seek solutions or answers.
8. Most importantly focus on "WE" and "OUR"

S... smiling..

another crappy monday.......

Oh no.. not another Bloody crappy Monday... !!

I was actually looking forward to having a good week starting this morning but how wrong I was ! Before I could start my day, I had 8 missed calls on my mobile before 9 am.  Hey...... good start i thought... 8 mah (fatt) 

As I was driving another call came in, this time customer is complaining unable to collect their containers due to certain reasons.  I was trying to keep my cool and talking to him while clutching my teeth holding back my cursing and nice flowers words that accompanied my temper.   Monday... Monday... why is always Monday ?? 

 

What a bloody Monday.....

Today of all day, is a S+#@ day and its a F@#$%^*% Monday.

I started my morning on a fine note and was looking forward to a good working day but how wrong I was.  When I arrived in the office, was doing my usual receiving emails over the weekend.  Then my immediate boss walks in, and hell break loose........!!!

I was summoned to his room for discussion.  He has make some plans that will or may change my work schedule.  Whatever it is, he has more or less makes up his mind, so why bother to have any discussion at all. Hail HITLER ..... So call, discussion !!

S till smoking..........

Chinese Yummies

Just when I had decided to take a break from "over eating" , invitations to indulge all came back to haunt me! It is not easy saying NO to food. So my diet has to take the back seat for a while. 
Jade Pot was the one that broke my humble intentions into a million tiny pieces. I saw my fat molecules expand even before I sat at the dining table!! The restaurant has such a warm and welcoming ambience that the moment you walk in , the whole experience envelopes around food and nothing else. 
Our host ordered everything on the menu. Like most restaurants nowadays there is a list of food served on the menu and all you have to do is tick or circle. And the host circled everything twice on the list!!! He said he could not decide so he picked them ALL, in both sizes ( small n big!) 

The food came served in nice tiered trays that resembled food served at English Tea!!!!  Each and every morsel of food melted in our mouths and although we had told the host that he had over ordered, we ate every bit of the food on the table. And another impressive factor was the condiments that came with the meal. There were 4 choices of sauces and all were flavourful and so aromatic.

Dynasty Dragon Seafood restaurant was the next place that fattened me up this week. We found it by chance as we went shopping and got hungry. They are having a promotion on crabs and that is one thing we cannot resist. There were no regrets as we sunk our teeth into the claypot crabs with "tang hoon". The promotion came with a tiny catch. You have to order at least 3 dishes so we had the crabs and a noodle, and the waiter was nice enough to tell us that the servings are big so for the 3rd dish we can just call a tim sum. 

The food was deliciously prepared and we also finished up every single drop of food !!! The service is excellent and it comes with  a free membership card that entitles us to a 30% discount for the months of July and August. After that there will be 10% discounts and points collection.


I think my diet has to be postponed till September!  

Who did this? NOT ME!

What you see is what you get....... 
but what you see is not the real me. 

DUCK!

There is too much of negativity in the world today so it's best to focus on the good these days. From a wide perspective, if you glance at the newspapers all you will ever see are accusations and bad politics, corruption and crimes. Do we really need more in our own personal lives? 

Pick up a broom, a mop or to be even more effective, a vacuum cleaner and get rid of all the bad vibes. We do not really need them and the sooner we chuck them aside the better our existence will get! But that's just physical removal! The hard core badness is all in the mental cavity! heck, it's no longer a cavity really cuz we are clogged with junk that drags us down. 

Every single input and abuse that's hurled at us, lands deep in our system and starts to sink to the lowest possible level to reside there forever, never to be eradicated. But then again , NEVER is another negative word , so let's find a way to dig deep , and remove the roots of destruction.

There is a way , we just have to fight heart and soul to get there. So let's start today and look on the bright side. If life throws you a curved ball, don't even bother catching it. Its bound to be filled with toxic!!!! Don't run either .... fear shows them that they have won. Instead just duck, then stand up and wait for the next curved ball for you know that there are more coming your way. They don't give up. 

And if you get hit by the ball, OUCH... it bruised you but that is one of life's lessons. Get up , dust the dirt off your butt and wait for the next one. But through it all , you will learn that in between all the balls of fire, there are moments of joy and happiness that overshadow the baddies. 

Happiness is when you discover immunity and negative balls no longer harm you. 

 

get off my Chat box!!!

If you look to the right and peep into the Chat Box in this blog, you will see tons of strangers leaving their words in there. None of them has any interest in this space, none of them stop by to read at all. They are just parasites , dropping by and leaving their little ads to promote their own blogs which are not even personal ones. They are all ads for some kind of sales! 

I have a deep urge to remove that chat box, seeing that no one actually leaves personal notes there at all anyway.  One way of finding out if these are genuine readers, is to just place your cursor on their name and if it "click-able" then its not worth clicking on!!! 10 times out of 10, the click will bring you to a website that either sells some stuff or advertises some other sell-able stuff!  

So I am seriously considering Clicking on Remove or Delete, and get these pests out of my sight! Yes, I am talking about YOU, the parasite with your leech-like attitude, your days are over..... JUST LEAVE! I am booting u off .... 1-2-3  

mistakenly booked

This is a true story which happened to me couple of months back !! 


"A friend is someone who's there when he needs you"

I can see clearly now, the brain has gone"


Occasionally, I have to travel on business trips to Indonesia with my boss or bosses.  When they have confirmed their departure date,  I would ask my boss, PA to proceed to with the booking of airtickets and hotel accomodation.  I also need to check with customers on those dates if they would be available for meetings / discussion.  But on that particular business trip, I make the booking for both the air tickets


So, this business trip only my other boss n myself was travelling - overnight business travel.  I happily booked the  return flight ticket without going through the details and clicking the confirmed button.  (internet booking via website)  it is so convenient nowadays !! So off, we flew and went about our meeting with customers upon arrival.  WE had meetings till evening and checked into the hotel.  During dinner, another business dinner meeting again.... sooooo tired.  Luckily, the next day,  the morning meeting was cancelled so no need to rush and can leisurely laze about and had a leisure breakfast before going to airport for our flight back to KL.


The fun begin when I was at the check in counter.  Firstly, the PIC was frowning when he checked my booking reference. Later, he called his superior and were whispering among themselves but did not tell me what was happening.  Finally, the news was... sorry Maam, but your return flight is not booked for today but for next month !!! I was like... eh... are you sure.. cannot be as i was the one that make the booking !!! Unbelievable.... what is these people trying to pull a fast one !!! ??  They showed me the booking and true enough the date was for next month.  Cold sweat.. die.. die... how la...  Thank god, there were seats available on the same flight but have to pay only !!! So, how pay la... otherwise stayed there till next month only fly back home... wkkkkkkkkkk..... !!! I was at the counter for almost 30 mins. My boss asked why so long and I said computer system down... !!! Ding... ding... dong... dong.......zapped two new ticket was printed out and the check in gate pass was quickly handed to my boss and told him to clear immigration while I "kautim" over the counter.  The blunder cost RM500++ for two tickets... ok la.... (now can laugh la)... 


So the next time, anyone of you does any booking via website, please check and double check ALL the particulars including the dates of travel before you conveniently click on the confirmed button.  !!  Lesson well learned !!!.


S illy me.....

Neutral

I am not there nor here.
I am not cold nor hot.
I am not that far away but then again I am nowhere near.
I am in the same space but out of the zone.
I am seen , yet I am hidden.
I am fragile but hard as stone.
I am not red, nor black, nor blue nor grey.
I am transparent , yet I am opaque.
I have stepped into the world of the Neutral.
I can be all things at once or none at all.
I am a new ME with no connections.

Born Stubborn

“Many are stubborn in pursuit of the path they have chosen, few in pursuit of the goal.”

I'm not upset that you lied to me, I'm upset that from now on I can't believe you”

Every three months, my nephew will have to present himself for medical check up at SDMC visiting his very nice and cute Dr Lee SP.  She is soft spoken and sweet doctor who has shown her concern on his well being.   Being a young adult, we all would expect him to take care of himself including taking his medication diligently and making sure he has enough rest and sleep to avoid attacks (epilepsy) which can just occur at any moment without warning.  Every time, she will ask the same questions and the answers will be the same.....

DR     : Any attacks so far ?

Him    : Eerrrr..... dont know.. maybe got..

Me     : Yes, there were a few attacks.... this month... this week... 

DR     : Ooh...... Why did the attack occur ?  

Him    : Dont know

DR     : Did you take your medication ? 

Him    :  Yes.

DR     : Regularly taking your medication ?

Him    : (Smiling).... sometimes... i forgot.

DR     : How come ?

Him    : If i wake up late, i dont have the time to take the medicine.

DR     : Do you have enough rest ?  Sleeping on time ?

Him    : (Smiling)...........

Me     : Hook on computer games... must play (just like drug addiction).. one day or one hour no computer game is like "HELL".......

DR    : You have to try to control or limit your playing time.  If possible, sleeping pattern must be the same. If you sleep at 11 pm, then try to keep the same time every night.

Him   : Quiet.......

Me    : I dont think he has any sleeping pattern... He will be  playing and playing and playing without any care in the world about time.  

DR   : How can la.... You are an adult and should know what is good for you and must take care of yourself since you have this.  Dont expect others to care for you when you cant even care for yourself.  M sure you would one day, get married and have children of your own.  Can you please try to take your medication and sleep early ?

Him  : Quiet.....

Me   : See,,,, two simple thing also cannot do....

DR   : Laughing... atleast he is being honest. !!

Me   : Pengsan... pengsan......

DR   : You have to try ah !!

The same scenario will take place during the next medical check up. !!

S imply smiling......

SENT OFF!!

Today is the day I am officially "sent off". The journey that started a year ago ended with one final class this morning. It was a bit of a sad moment as we sat in that room for the last time. With certificates in hand, I felt that i was not yet ready for i still have so much to learn. I had enjoyed every single session , be it with the official facilitator or with Sister Connie. There were so much enlightenment and knowledge , so much of Grace and Holy Spirit. We were filled with joy and laughter, and sometimes fear and anxiety. The joy comes from the possibilities and abundance of love that we are to receive as children of God. The laughter was the result of many funny instances of each and every participant in class and
of course the jokes we shared with each other. The fear and anxiety were never from doubts or uncertainly of the beautiful journey we were going through but mainly from shyness and fumbling. I hope to re-join the class , bringing along with me new friends and family members who want to start on this glorious journey. I will be happy to sit through it all again very soon.

                                       COME JOIN ME :)

Too Nice for my own good

It's true that too much of anything is not good. Excessive eating , drinking and partying is a big NO-NO! But one would assume that anything nice and pleasant can't go very wrong but that was my lesson this year!
I found that being nice if over done can land me in hot soup. For one thing , being nice to this "friend" who seems to hate my guts did not change her hatred for me. I have not spoken to her for almost 2 years and she is still back biting...OUCH OUCH! i am kidding LOL it no longer hurts now. I just laugh when i hear my friends tell me how she bitches about me. I have spent years on end trying to be nice to her and now i have given up and just ignore her.

Showing consideration and concern for parties who apparently seemed lost has also landed me in another kind of predicament. Intentions are misconstrued and I may have been labelled as needy! Never before have i been so misunderstood! It all started with me wanting to lend a hand and somewhere along the way , the roles got switched and I ended up in the opposite party!

Example no.3 is the norm and a classic. I am sure everyone at one point or another has been in this scenario. You thought it would be nice to help out or do something constructive. Sometimes you get appreciative words and other times, there will be an array of complaints to spoil it all. That's always expected and most times, we weigh the odds and think that its worth the effort. That's life. We have to take the good and the bad.

So where does this leave us? Do we still continue to be nice? Do we now identify who we can be nice to and who we have to stay away from? Or if we continue to surround ourselves with people who misunderstand us, should we watch what we say and do?

Easier said than done, we are who we are and no matter how we try and monitor our moves and emotions, we tend to let our guard down way too often. After all we are not Oscar winners , we are not good pretenders , we are Just The Way We Are!!

Plain Old Common Sense and My 2 cents worth!

In our heads lie deep thoughts, which if we allow with our full permission, they flow and stream towards the lips and onto the tongues. Mental ideas that turn into verbal material do not always come out as wisdom. Words have the power to destroy , but then again spoken in the right way , they can calm and sooth. Once vocalised these sentiments make their way through the hearts of the listener. Then the perception sets in, the options are endless. Each segment of your auditory organ only receives the message and sends signals throughout the body.

What one perceives as humour may be seen by another as sarcasm. Wisdom could take a roundaout turn and appear more foolish if intentions are not honourable. Remember that the truly wise has nothing to prove, it’s the ones with an empty heart and a hollow mind that has to continually spread their ideology.



Bottom line is, SHUT UP and hope that no one knows how dumb you are. The quiet will very seldom be exposed as fools. It is the one who speaks loudest and longest that give the secret away. So shut that "trap" and maybe we might see an ounce of intelligence in you. Believe me , that is more than enough credit than you deserve.



And while I am at it, I might as well mention my other peeve. People who seem to think they know it all . OMG, can you please spare us all that recycled knowledge? We don’t need to listen to the “I told you so” as well. Or some on and on gossip about your neighbours’ kids and how they live their lives. Spare me that crap! PUH-LEEZ!!!!

Ok I am on a roll now so this is not the end. How about the ones who seem to think that the world owes them BIG time. They seem to have swallowed the bitter pill and think the entire universe has to bow down to them just cuz they have suffered through some miserable childhood or gone through a bad relationship. Hellooooo, your part of the planet is not a bed of roses now cuz you are stuck in all that negativity. Vomit that bitterness out of your system, suck on some sweet candy and move on to the next thing. No one owes u SHIT!

Last of all, be happy with what you have. Don’t look back at what could have been. Take a deep breath and move ahead, what was in your past is over. If I do sound like I was sprinkling some wisdom, you are wrong. Those are not wise words … It is just COMMON SENSE!

God is great.....

My heart stopped for a moment when I received a phone call from my ex. colleague yesterday morning.  It was regarding my nephew.  He just has an epilepsy attack in his office which he just started work early last month. I rushed myself to his office.  Upon arriving, there was a medical doctor attending to him. His office colleagues were in shock as this is the first time they have seen such attack. I was calm and cool as I have seen this many a times in my office when he was working in the same office as me.  Every time he has his attack, my heart goes out for him and wondering why he has to go through life like this.  My heart ached for him so much so, every time the attack comes, I would be scared and always on my toes, alert !

after he regained consciousness, he normally forgot what has happened to him as he was still daze.  The ambulance came and took him back to the hospital for observation.  As usual he will refuse to stay in the hospital and insist to rest at home. I prayed that the Management will not asked him to leave after the attack episode in the office.  It was a tense weekend for me as the uncertainty of whether he will continue to work there or given the boot when he returns back to work the following Monday.

On Saturday morning, I received the dreadful phone call from my ex.colleague.  I am trying my best to control my emotions and to prepare myself for the worst.  He sounded serious and my heart was beating fast.......he said the boss is concern over the incident yesterday (Friday).  His advice was to have proper rest, medication and importantly to take care of his health by taking more nutritious food !!! My thoughts for the worst is yet to come.  The bombshell will be next...........!!!!! Please take care and have a good rest before clocking in to work when he is well !!! Did i hear what I just heard from my ex.colleague ?? I was elated and immediately burst "THANK AND PRAISE GOD" for his greatness and goodness. Thank God for leading him to work  for such an understanding boss. I was almost in tears !! I asked for the boss number as I need to personally thank him on behalf of the family. His number was busy when I tried calling so I decided to sent a SMS to him. My message :
"on behalf of the family, we sincerely thank you for your kindness and understanding to accept the condition of his health to allow him to continue working with your company.  May God bless you and your family always". He later replied, you're most welcome !!!

GOD always works in his mysterious ways and this is one of them.

THANK YOU, GOD !!!

S incerely thankfully.

Long after she is gone, I am still in a daze. What started out as a diversion from work as I stood looking out the window had left me flustered and in a turmoil.

It’s hard to explain why that look had impacted me thus. It was as if an old sore had reopened and its wound, after all this time, still painful.  

For years I’ve searched.. in faces of people I meet at malls, airports, hospitals. I’m at a loss to describe exactly what it is I am seeking but I know I would recognize it if it appeared. Through the passing of time, I thought I had convinced myself to end my search, but ever so often, out of sheer habit, I would unconsciously look; with no real hope of ever finding it again.

I didn’t deliberately set out to find it. The first time, it lasted only a split second so much so I wondered if I had imagined it? But in that brief glance; when she opened her eyes to look at me; it seemed as if time stood still and she had spoken words I alone could hear. Words I couldn’t comprehend or perhaps, chose not to in my denial to accept what I thought was said. Not knowing what to make of it, I have kept this a secret. But I could not forget.

   

It is inconceivable that I finally found closure in the most unlikely of place and circumstance; through a scene in the movie “Daylight”. The friends I was with must have thought it strange that I had cried so hard at the theatre that night. But the realization of what it was you were trying to say dawned on me with such clarity that I finally understood.

Since then I have been searching…. and I told myself, if I ever do find it, it will be me speaking, assuring you that everything is alright…

Because He Lives (child ending)

Good Friday

The song ...so beautiful and meaningful.
The video.... never fails to bring tears to my eyes.
The heart.....feels so much pain
But come Good Friday, we are all reminded of how He died for us.
See how He suffered for our sins.....
Because He loves us.
Thank You for your everlasting Love, my LORD!

She stood there seemingly undecided. From my window I watched her reach out her hand to the doorbell but it stopped in mid-air. Amused I thought to myself, “What’s going on?”

Suddenly, she turned towards me, as if she sensed someone watching her. I took a couple of steps back, feeling a twinge of guilt even though I wasn’t sure she had actually seen me. Within that brief moment before she disappeared from my range of view, I saw it; the sadness in her eyes. A sadness that was so profound that in spite of the distance between us, I could feel its intensity.

It struck me then that she was probably so lost in her own thoughts she had turned towards me unconsciously. Even as I felt bad about catching her at such a vulnerable moment, I watched on, hoping to catch another glimpse of that look.

You see, I know that look. I’ve seen it before, twice to be exact - the last was in ‘96. It spoke to me then just as it seemed to be speaking to me now, through the eyes of a stranger. As she walked away, I knew I would never learn what was plaguing her. It didn’t matter, I didn’t need to know why. Somehow I just understood.

F

The wonders of a REAL woman

Whatever you give a WOMAN, she will make greater.

---

.....If you give her sperm, she’ll give you a baby.

.....If you give her a house, she’ll give you a home.

.....If you give her groceries, she’ll give you a meal.

.....If you give her a smile, she’ll give you her heart.

She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her.

.....So, if you give her any crap, be ready to receive a ton of shit.

 

 

All is not lost

'The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything;

They just make the most of everything they have

And when they lose that something along the way , they can still be happy.

For there are other aspects in one's life that bring happiness.

OUR SONG too!!!

This is OUR song..... LA LA LALA
LA LA LA LA OUR song!!!
Hahahaha!!!

I made it ... so can u!

Dear Friend,
I made it through the rain.
The sun appeared and shone through.
I kept my world protected and i will protect yours too.
I kept my point of view... and so can you.
We will start our own parade.
I did it ! SO can YOU!

Crazy post today :)

I can sing SOLO!

Feel like singing " LA LA LA"

Let's sing a DUET!

FA LA LA LA LA!!

I sing DUM DUM DUM

U go DO DO DO DO

Together we will go WEE WOO WEE WOO!!

Choose....

" I made my choice...... and hope u do , too, my friend :)"

Life is so unpredictable,

It is full of ups and downs.

Hurt and disappointments are part of the parcel of life.

When these negative vibes are thrown at you,

look them straight in the eye,

let them hit you in the heart,

for through this pain,

strength and courage become our companions

experiences and memories become reminders.

Accept the flow of life

and choose to be happy.
Make that choice today!

Which is YOU?

Is this you?

The Tasmanian Devil?

Brave enough to stand up and say "I have had enough! Back Off or else.......

Or are you the Hula Princess? 

Pretty and Sweet, swinging your hips but that still does not make you a mermaid!

I like this one! 

No matter how useless they make you feel, just get out there and get pissed drunk!

I wanna be this! 

The fat ass wicked fairy who sprinkles mouldy dust on those who made us feel the way we feel right now!!

SAIL BOATS

I close my eyes and I feel the breeze on my face. I inhale the air around me and with my eyes still closed,I know where I am. I had been transported to another place. In my hands I feel the roughness of a rope, tugging rhythmically, confirming my location. 

I know what is in store for me as I open my eyes. Stepping into the sail boat, I understand that a new journey begins but not for me alone. Glancing around, numerous boats were afloat. I see some familiar faces etched with concern like mine. They too are wondering what lies ahead. I look further beyond and see more faces ~ new ones with warm smiles, ~ they know what their intentions are. I admire them, I envy them for they know their destiny.

The whistle blew and it meant that the time had come. We went on board the sail boat and started the journey. Winds blew in gusts and filled the sails, making our boats soar ahead. Some were moving faster than the rest. We were all going towards the same direction. Were we in a race? No one looks anxious or in a hurry. No words were spoken as our sail boats rocked forward with the waves. 

Out in the open sea, the boats sailed apart. Although we were all still sailing in the same direction, the distance between us has widened. Dark clouds appeared and rain started to fall. Our boats were tossed roughly and eventually we were just specks of little dots spread out in the ocean. Each boat sailing its own course and as I turned to look for you, all I saw were unknown faces. My one consolation was that unknown will now bring me new confidence.

Let Go......

On this day , ....

God wants you to know..... 

... that it's time you let go. .....

Yes, of course, you want to control,....

so everything happens in just the way you want it. 

 

But at the end of the day, we control nothing!

 

It's all in God's hands,

It has always been, and will always be. 

So, do what you can, 

and then let go, 

 

and let God handle the rest.

Small small world!

I realized what a small world we live in when i went out on a shopping and makan outing with my friends on Sunday! The 7 of us drove ourselves in 2 cars and split into 2 groups as we went on a shopping spree. I noticed the huge SALES sign on the glass window of the BEBE shop, so i wandered over there and peered in. There were 3 customers in there and as one of them turned to face me , I recognized that face instantly!  

"TAI NGAN KAM YEE SAU NGA POR" That was the name that was coined by one of my close friends back when we were 15 and nasty!!! And if u can read those 7 words in perfect Cantonese then u will know what she looks like as well LOL i am still nasty!! She has not changed one bit and i have to be honest that i did see that face in FB just a week back as well. 

As she started to head out of the boutique, i knew that she was looking right at me. I had wanted to move away but it would have been too obvious, so i stood rooted and pretended to point out a dress like some Oscar winning actress LOLOL I truly hate meeting up with old school mates esp ones whom i was never close to! But when caught with no where to run i had to face the music. And the music was a long drone and unmelodious repertoire!  HI, u are so and so and i am so and so , and i stay here and u stay there. Blah blah blah! 

After what seemed like forever, she said that she had to rush off , heading back to Ipoh after visiting her daughter here in PJ. I continued on with my shopping and an hour later, i saw another set of eyes that were familiar.This time i was prepared cuz i was not standing rooted to a shop. My legs were in motion and as our eyes met for an instant i turned away sharply and made my footsteps resemble a giant's!!! This one is a Joanne, an insurance agent and friend i had lost touch with cuz she called me a million times each week, bombarding me with requests to quench her quota!

When dinner time came i was just relieved and happy to sit my hungry tummy at a long table , sharing tons of salmon sashimi and loads of hanamaki and many more different Japanese yummies i call my GOOOOOOD  SLURPY FRIENDS!  LOLOL!

friends forever or forever friends

There are alot of happenings recently which may change or affect some of our lives. Things happen for some reasons or happen because it just happen or waiting for the happening to happen or purposely make it happen or whatever happens has happened.

I sincerely hope whatever happened, each and everyone of us will remain friends no matter what and look forward to building a stronger footing and working hard to keeping our friendship alive.

If I could go back and change the world, I would. If I could, I would I'd give anything to turn back the hands of time. Anything in the world ; you name it, anything - I would. I can feel my heart breaking and it's not even whole. Some of you got a piece and so does everyone closes to me. My heart has never belonged to just me. Our lungs and livers can be replaced. But your lives? Think of what's at stake. I don't know, without all of you there would never be any "jalan jalan cari makan, clubbing, holidays, chiapkooting, bar-b-q, karaoke, laughing ourselves silly. Each and every one of you make it worthwhile.  God only knows. You aren't just my friends.  Life feels like a mind-teaser; only it doesn't give you all the clues. The truth sets you free, that's what they say. Just be honest, let your heart lead the way. I know it wasn't any of you who started the "fire". Just remember that no matter what anyone says; each and everyone of you made a difference. I know you have it in you to change but just remember that when things dont go your way; have a party or try to be cool.  Your burns / hurts will heal, But your memory will remain. Please make the right decision.

S..... sober